welcome to heartbreak.

So, at first I was really hesitant about listening to/downloading 808s and Heartbreak.
Love Lockdown had just come across as really rough, and it was a completely unanticipated deviation from 'normal' Kanye.
And to be honest, I just wasn't expecting another album so quickly. HA.

But the more songs that were released, the more I liked the album.
And then I read an article about how Kanye's album was released so quickly because he had absolutely no one to talk to about anything. He felt isolated. Within a week of his fiance breaking up with him (again ....), his mother passed. It's been rumored that he tried to get back in contact with her, but she refused. Needless to say, he poured all of his soul into his music. All of his pain, his turmoil, his questioned insanity - into his music. You can almost hear the pain.

Which leads me to believe that he chose to 'sing' on this album as it would be too hard to force rhymes to convey how you felt. Just 'singing' lets it all come out in its own way. Not all people can rap or rhyme how they feel and have everyone understand, but every single person has the capability to sing what they're feeling.

And that's why I like it.
Maybe it's 'bad' that I can connect to an album that has grief-twinged lyrics, or with a person who's forced to come across as completely unfeeling.
Even glancing at photos of him lately shows that he's in pain.
He looks like a robot.

And my head keeps spinning, can't stop having these visions ...

It's almost like a vocalized journal from Kanye.
Not to mention my boyfriend is on the album. :)
YAR

hop a plane.

Seven weird things about me, as (somewhat) challenged by Constance.
I'm blogging these since they have an explanation.

1. I am unbelievably clumsy. No matter what it could possibly be, I will end up tripping over SOMETHING and hurting myself. Yesterday, I fell when Dexter & I were at the drive through at McDonalds, he turned the corner and I slammed down onto the floor of the car. :(

2. I do not need people's approval, yet I seek it quite often.

3. I can not stand a clean room. It bothers me sooooooo badly. I have seriously rearranged my room but have not cleaned it up. Clean rooms represent ... anal retentiveness to me, and I definitely am not a fan of hyper-organization.

4. If I haven't brushed my teeth, I don't smile correctly. I'll never know why. Seriously, if you think my smile looks odd in a photo, it's very likely that I didn't brush my teeth that day.

5. I read GQ for the articles // I watch the Pick Up Artist and I always squee when the guys do well.

6. Me being sleepy is the equivalent of me being really .... reeeaaaaaaalllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy drunk.

7. I never eat all of my food. Ever. I always give a piece away, or I throw some away. I have half a bag of popcorn, an extra cookie, pieces of croissant, and a whole bowl of cheerios sitting in here.

whatever.

Apparently, one of Dana's favorite CDs is Sam's Town.
And he said my hair was awesome.
:)

necromancer.

On Tuesday, I'm heading to [shudders] that place to get my ear gauging shit.
And I'm going to gauge my goddamn ears. I think I'm going to start with a '16, and progress to about a '10. Maybe.

Don't like it?
Good, that's what I was expecting

Think I'm hoping on a bandwagon?
You might just be right, but I'd rather be on this bandwagon than the one you're on.

Think I'm representing myself as a whiny emo brat?
Hello, Taqee. :)

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Sage has a blog that is marvelous. Go read it.
:)