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You should probably read Chanel's blog before you read mine, to get an idea of where I was coming from. (Link you say? NOPE. TOO DAMN LAZY.)
In life, people try to fit in.
It's a natural human want, to be accepted and acknowledged by a social group that they feel is deserving. You can not deny it, for it is a primal instinct.
No one wants to be disliked by the entire world.
No one wants to be alienated from the entire world.
To make this simple: humans are (very) social creatures, therefore depriving them of a necessity makes them suffer from lunacy.
Now to make my point:
I definitely get tired of seeing people everywhere trying to be 'nerds', 'geeks', 'dorks', 'different', 'weird', 'preps', 'punks', blah. I understand that in high school, it can be very difficult to find yourself but in the process, don't do shit that you don't enjoy.
[looks at Michael Boone]
If you have no real sense of style and you're just a tee and jeans kinda person, ACCEPT THAT!
If you throw on whatever's clean, SAY THAT! ACCEPT IT! EMBRACE IT!
Every single person is not 'different'.
This seems to be a foreign concept.
I'm not trying to be different.
I won't even say that I am.
People just consider it odd that I don't fucking like Ed Hardy (TRASH TRASH TRASH), love the Salvation Army, listen to music you've never heard of, make faces that don't make sense, see the world in colors that don't exist, and that my heart beats for a mothership that never come.
So, since 'different' is in, I'll be a fucking loser.
That's what I've always been.
I'm that kid you ostracize, not the kid you ask for shopping tips you fucking coons!
Just trying to be au naturale.
And that takes testing.
People grow up.
In my mind, things don't have to make sense.
But nowadays, it's cool for things not to make sense.
It's awesome if your clothes don't match, or if you wear two different shoes.
Bitch, I've been doing that since day one! Not because it was cool but because I'm poor and lazy!
I don't really know who this is directed towards anymore.
Lol.
In short, I guess I'm a fucking loser because I'm cultured.
I suppose that's what 'weird' really means.
Someone who has an affinity for something you don't really know anything about.
BLAH!
:)
& I updated the links on the side of my page, and I think you should look at ALL of them ... and if you have Firefox, add StumbleUpon. I've been stumbling (upon, ha) blogs all day and reading them .... don't tell anybody.
* If you're looking for an explanation as to 'yo | snowstorm', well, yo was because I put yo in my header and snowstorm = you've got me.
You should download She & Him's Volume One. My love Zooey's on vocals.
is love, yes.
"you`re the only one i see sometimes."
days like this make me smile on the inside.
days like this make me realize that while detroit may be a hood ass city, i am not a hood ass person. i am not hood. i am not detroit.
mmm.
my last draft was super fucking long.
then firefox crashed.
some BULLSHIT.
anyway, i'm staying up to see keeler off.
because that's my best bud, y'know?
he's seen me through some shit, i've seen him through some shit.
i want three more tattoos at this very moment.
'plain jane' in my handwriting on my ankle.
the 'brain' idea.
and a planet with a single ring on my hand (in the little piece of tissue between my thumb & index)
me has decided against humoring people's ideas anymore.
if i don't give a fuck, i'm just not gonna respond.
or, if i think what you said what absolutely ludicrous, no response.
dexter met new people tonight.
hip hop hooray! [no sarcasm intended]
y'know, i'm so sarcastic i can't even tell when i'm being sarcastic anymore.
lmao.
but yeah, i can't wait until school starts up, and then when i move away.
me loves my circle of close friends, but me misses that broader amount of friends who you know won't rly be there for you, but get you through the school day with their humor.
y'know?
i took photos of julian marley performing today.
although i'm not really a fan of his (at least not prior to today), it was cool being in VIP seats for a performer who's father is world renowned and flat out amazing.
all i have is too many questions, is there something;someone you forgot to mention?
italicized shit are song lyrics.
mm, nonsensicalness!
if you want to see the photos, you'll just have to wait.
the whole purpose of being downtown was to take the photos for troy, though.
i don't even thinks he understands how much pressure i'm under right now.
if anything goes wrong/not the way i planned it, my blood sugar feels like it's dropping and i get panicky.
sure, he's a normal person, but he's talented and apparently cool as shit.
THAT'S PRESSURE
[breathes]
me misses him.
it's just getting easier for me to stop thinking about him so much.
after a while, you just have to accept that something isn't as close as you want it to be anymore, and it won't be that way for a while.
:( so why can't i accept that of keeler?
i'm scared that he's going to go off and make all these new rich ass friends and never speak to my poor ass again. :(
or that he'll forget me.
he's gonna be in fucking connecticut.
WHAT THE FUCK!??!!?!??!!pNTRIEWODNRTIOE
at this point, i think he's probably gone to sleep, or i'm not gonna talk to him until later today [sigh] whatever.
my imagination's running, trying to keep my body still
blahhhhhhh.
today, i thought about how 'absent-minded' i am.
sometimes, i think about so much at once that it completely engulfs my entire thought process and i completely forget where i am.
today, my mom tapped me when we were in the car, and i realized that for the last four minutes, i had been purely in my mind.
that sounds dangerous as fuck.
what happens if i'm driving and i 'zone out'?
or if i'm cooking and that happens? (it has happened before. i started warming up my mac and cheese, and i went outside to play with my dog. came back in, half the house was on fire.)
i'm getting yet another headache.
ahaha, today at fishbone's, conz, keeler, and i had a competition to see who could color their fish the best and tell the best story. i completely revamped my fish and turned him into 'CONFUTIUSfish'. he had a beard and a mustache, and had wingsssss!
constance won though. :( I WAS CHEATED!
my dumbass can't find my camera cord.
you know what else i realized?
tommie green is a miserable soul.
he could make it so much further if he was humble.
or less arrogant.
or not a dick.
and the sad thing is, he justifies his actions by saying he's 'honest'.
sad thing is, i used to admire him.
andrew goddeeris, too.
maybe because i was so similar to them?
mrew!
apparently, there's a donnie darko sequel.
oh yes/oh noes.
i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, that the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had ...
togepi is the most adorable and worthless ass pokemon!
YES.
i'm done.
fuckit, bukkit.
These surveys are just 'holders' until I feel like divulging details.
RULES: 1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, MP3 Player, or whatever on Shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds! 4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name. how would you describe yourself?
"scandalous scholastics ; gym class heroes"
(legendary, baby?)
what do you like in a guy/girl?
"sweet valium high ; charlotte sometimes"
(oh yes, I love a man to cheat on me and then drug me to assuage the pain!)
how do you feel today?
"hi-definition ; lupe fiasco featuring snoop dogg & pooh bear"
(since I look like shit right now, I suppose my flaws ARE in hi-definition.)
what is your life’s purpose?
"weird science ; does it offend you, yeah?"
(I'M GAWNA BE A SCIENTIST?!?!?!? OH NO MA'AM.)
what is your motto?
"feelings show ; colbie caillat"
(oddly enough, that is my motto. the real will always be real and the false will always show their facetious side eventually)
what do your friends think of you?
"keeping you alive ; gossip"
(i don't know whether to say thank you or fuck you.)
what do you think of your parents? "bitch ; sa-ra"
(ahhahahahahaaha)
what do you think about very often?
"pleasure ryland ; cobra starship"
(do not! not that much ... a lot .... all day, everyday ... mmmmmmm)
what is 2 + 2?
"sunshine ; mos def"
(true, i'm terrible with math, but wonderful at being a hippy!)
what do you think of your best friend?
"the way you move ; outkast featuring sleepy brown"
(no coco.)
i got fucking tired of that and i came up with a blog idea right here!
why do so many people act like the pinnacle(s) of womanhood are virginity loss, giant wedding, marriage, kids, elderhood, death?!
i've never understood why so many girls wanted to get married in the traditional sense.
or how they could do it.
how can you possibly swear that you'll love someone else for the REST OF YOUR LIFE?
honestly, that seems a little ... naive. especially since 52% of marriages end in divorce.
so really, you're just lying to yourself and changing 'i'll love you until i can love you no more' to 'i'll love you forever'. say what you mean, people! otherwise, you immediately are entering this marriage with a LIE. maybe that's why so many of them end. it's built upon a lie, not upon truth.
i'm never getting married, for that reason.
the person who loves me enough to want to marry me should understand that.
i have no problem with us doing all the things a married couple does, as long as we have a mental union.
what's the difference between that and an actual married couple?
nothing but a ring. and i don't need a ring to profess to the world that i'm madly in love with someone.
and about virginity ... why is it slated that the greatest thing a girl can give a man is her virginity?! what the fuck? are you kidding me? out of all of the things a woman has (her intelligence, her charms, her wisdom, her courage) the greatest thing you can ever pass on is a thin piece of tissue that covers the inside of your vagina? for serious? that's a bit degrading!
& children ... aren't for everyone. i get tired of people telling me that they can't wait until i have kids. what the fuck is so hard to understand that i'm NOT!? i don't like children, i'm not responsible, i'm indecisive, and i don't eat what babies eat. i am not prepared to change my entire lifestyle around for some little person. nope. guess i'm selfish!
also, how can people support teenage mothers?
so many 14-18 year old girls get pregnant, and their entire group of friends backs them up like it was the greatest thing that ever happened. :|
a true friend does not have to support everything their friend does.
a true friend is honest.
and honestly, if one of my friends got pregnant, i wouldn't be supportive.
they haven't graduated from college yet, and have an entire future to worry about.
i've heard many success stories, but working towards your goals = a lot harder when you have a child whining in your ear. especially if you're a freshman in college and you have to pay for tuition AND a baby.
whomp, not supporting it.
hm.
i have trust issues.
not necessarily issues with trusting people, just issues with being pessimistic, i suppose.
but i talked about them, and now i feel better.
^_^
ily, 3-D!
Dino has inspired me to write again.
I won't make the majority of it public, though.
Before anything with my name on it hits the internets, I need to write for myself again.
Daydreamer by Adele
Daydreamer, sitting on the scene, soaking up the sun
He is a real lover, making up the past and feeling up his girl like he's never felt her figure before
A jaw dropper, looks good when he walks, is the subject of their talk
He would be hard to chase, but good to catch and he could change the world with his hands behind his back
You can find him sitting on your doorstep, waiting for a surprise
And you will feel like he's been there for hours ... and you can tell that he'll be there for life
Daydreamer: with eyes that make you melt
He lends his coat for shelter plus he's there for you when he shouldn't be
But he stays all the same, waits for you then he sees you through
There's no way I could describe him
What I'll say is "just what I'm hoping for."
But I will find him sitting on my doorstep
Waiting for a surprise
And he will feel like he's been there for hours, and I can tell he'll be there for life
...and I can tell that he'll be there for life.
What's your favorite color?
green. betcha didn't know that!
Would you ever donate blood?
most definitely. just for the cookies afterwards.
What are you thinking about right now?
i could make a great actress. great, i tell you!
Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
aero.
Ever kissed someone who smokes?
yep.
Is someone on your mind right now?
not rly. i was thinking about kitty kats.
Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
yep! shared a bed with him, too.
Who has your heart?
dexter, travis, sam, nick, joe, john, jason, wasalu, kate, adele, charlotte ...
What are you listening to?
hey love, hey love.
Who were you with last night?
my luvah.
Do you believe in love?
huzzah!
If you were to die today would your life be complete?
not by a long shot.
When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
never. that shit's unattractive.
What do you regret in 2008 so far?
dating him.
Do you curse a lot?
fuck no! what the fuckshit type of bitch do you think i am?! ho.
Who was the last person to lay on top of you?
dex.
Where's the person you have feelings for right now?
either at home or headed to le oak of royalty.
Have you ever drank with your number three?
my number three ... what?
Ever got caught?
not happening. nevah.
Did your parents find out?
i'm so confused.
Can you use chopsticks?
can, yes. prefer, no.
When was the last time you got flowers?
never. i actually don't think i'd like getting flowers very much.
When was the last time you cried and why?
yesterday evening. it wasn't sad crying, but my eyes started watering up.
Last time you washed your hair?
a week and a half ago.
Last encounter with the police?
shrug.
Where will you be sleeping tonight?
on my couch.
Can you ice skate?
i used to be able to skate really well.
and now i fail at it.
Are you a Gatorade drinker?
vitamin water.
You see a shooting star, do you make a wish?
sure.
When was the last time you ran?
yesterday? the day before that? iono.
Do you have a brother?
stepbrother.
Do you say sexy a lot?
lmao, maybe.
Do you know how to change a diaper?
yes. take it off, throw it in the opposite direction of the way you're running.
Have you ever peed in the woods?
nope!
Where?
hm?
Last person you talked to on the phone for over an hour?
dex?
How long have you known the person you last kissed?
4 months ... ?
Next vacation you're going on?
paris!
Do you have any piercings?
have, some. want, more.
Do you have any tattoos?
have, one. want, more.
What is in the back seat of your car right now?
no carro.
