make my day.

You aren't listening to me, just like everyone else.

Well alright.

why?

Why do old ass men consistently honk their horns at young girls?
Meaning ... girls who obviously look like they can't smoke, drink ... girls that look too young to do much of anything.
It makes me wonder ... do these men really think that this YOUNG ASS GIRL is going to head to the car of some octogenarian? And if this girl actually did want to 'take it there' with Oldie, how would he respond?

more to life.

Piglets are the cutest things ever.
Stacie Orrico's 'More to Life' has been my anthem for the past few days.
There's gotta be more to life than chasing up every temporary high, to satisfy me. There's gotta be more than wanting more.
The more I look at my life, and how every twist and turn leads me down another path ... I really hope there's so much more than what has been revealed to me. There needs to be more than this bullshit I'm seeing right now. Eventually, people will be honest ... right? Eventually, we'll stop hiding our feelings ... eventually, we'll all .... stop wishing for things that'll never be. Most of my friends will head off to college this summer, and as much I'd like to do the same, I can't bring myself to. It seems like life is overall ... preparation. Preparation for living, as backwards/paradoxical as that seems. We're taught to go through our lives without question. Go to preschool! Go to elementary! Go to middle school! Go to high school! Get good grades! Go to college! Get a degree in a profession that'll make you tons of money! Save, invest! Get a stable career! Blah blah blah. If the entire planet were obliterated, none of those things would matter. It wouldn't matter how much your income was, or what degree you had, or how many people liked you. It wouldn't matter how many debates you won, or what dress you wore to prom. Eh. That's an awfully depressing thought. Just because everything could come crashing down instantly is no justification for not trying your hardest.


Unnecessarily personal detail: I have difficulty believing in the intimacy of families, as my family is completely fucked up and laughs in the face of 'closeness'. We have familial claustrophobia.