freak on a leash.

"you`re the only one i see sometimes."

days like this make me smile on the inside.
days like this make me realize that while detroit may be a hood ass city, i am not a hood ass person. i am not hood. i am not detroit.

mmm.

my last draft was super fucking long.
then firefox crashed.
some BULLSHIT.
anyway, i'm staying up to see keeler off.
because that's my best bud, y'know?
he's seen me through some shit, i've seen him through some shit.
i want three more tattoos at this very moment.
'plain jane' in my handwriting on my ankle.
the 'brain' idea.
and a planet with a single ring on my hand (in the little piece of tissue between my thumb & index)
me has decided against humoring people's ideas anymore.
if i don't give a fuck, i'm just not gonna respond.
or, if i think what you said what absolutely ludicrous, no response.
dexter met new people tonight.
hip hop hooray! [no sarcasm intended]
y'know, i'm so sarcastic i can't even tell when i'm being sarcastic anymore.
lmao.
but yeah, i can't wait until school starts up, and then when i move away.
me loves my circle of close friends, but me misses that broader amount of friends who you know won't rly be there for you, but get you through the school day with their humor.
y'know?

i took photos of julian marley performing today.
although i'm not really a fan of his (at least not prior to today), it was cool being in VIP seats for a performer who's father is world renowned and flat out amazing.
all i have is too many questions, is there something;someone you forgot to mention?
italicized shit are song lyrics.
mm, nonsensicalness!
if you want to see the photos, you'll just have to wait.
the whole purpose of being downtown was to take the photos for troy, though.
i don't even thinks he understands how much pressure i'm under right now.
if anything goes wrong/not the way i planned it, my blood sugar feels like it's dropping and i get panicky.
sure, he's a normal person, but he's talented and apparently cool as shit.
THAT'S PRESSURE
[breathes]

me misses him.
it's just getting easier for me to stop thinking about him so much.
after a while, you just have to accept that something isn't as close as you want it to be anymore, and it won't be that way for a while.
:( so why can't i accept that of keeler?
i'm scared that he's going to go off and make all these new rich ass friends and never speak to my poor ass again. :(
or that he'll forget me.
he's gonna be in fucking connecticut.
WHAT THE FUCK!??!!?!??!!pNTRIEWODNRTIOE
at this point, i think he's probably gone to sleep, or i'm not gonna talk to him until later today [sigh] whatever.
my imagination's running, trying to keep my body still
blahhhhhhh.
today, i thought about how 'absent-minded' i am.
sometimes, i think about so much at once that it completely engulfs my entire thought process and i completely forget where i am.
today, my mom tapped me when we were in the car, and i realized that for the last four minutes, i had been purely in my mind.
that sounds dangerous as fuck.
what happens if i'm driving and i 'zone out'?
or if i'm cooking and that happens? (it has happened before. i started warming up my mac and cheese, and i went outside to play with my dog. came back in, half the house was on fire.)
i'm getting yet another headache.
ahaha, today at fishbone's, conz, keeler, and i had a competition to see who could color their fish the best and tell the best story. i completely revamped my fish and turned him into 'CONFUTIUSfish'. he had a beard and a mustache, and had wingsssss!
constance won though. :( I WAS CHEATED!
my dumbass can't find my camera cord.

you know what else i realized?
tommie green is a miserable soul.
he could make it so much further if he was humble.
or less arrogant.
or not a dick.
and the sad thing is, he justifies his actions by saying he's 'honest'.
sad thing is, i used to admire him.
andrew goddeeris, too.
maybe because i was so similar to them?
mrew!

apparently, there's a donnie darko sequel.
oh yes/oh noes.
i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, that the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had ...

togepi is the most adorable and worthless ass pokemon!
YES.
i'm done.
fuckit, bukkit.