breathe in, laugh out.

Damn.
The one thing I have always needed in my life is motivation. Proper motivation, anyway. People calculating the cost of failure is absolutely futile to me, as I've convinced myself I'm not worth a damn thing anyway. There needs to be someone who refuses to listen to my excuses, and makes me do my work. Yes, I should have some sort of self-discipline. That isn't any justification for the lack of help I've been receiving though. I wish it were that Friday where I never have to come back to anything.