Piglets are the cutest things ever.
Stacie Orrico's 'More to Life' has been my anthem for the past few days.
There's gotta be more to life than chasing up every temporary high, to satisfy me. There's gotta be more than wanting more.
The more I look at my life, and how every twist and turn leads me down another path ... I really hope there's so much more than what has been revealed to me. There needs to be more than this bullshit I'm seeing right now. Eventually, people will be honest ... right? Eventually, we'll stop hiding our feelings ... eventually, we'll all .... stop wishing for things that'll never be. Most of my friends will head off to college this summer, and as much I'd like to do the same, I can't bring myself to. It seems like life is overall ... preparation. Preparation for living, as backwards/paradoxical as that seems. We're taught to go through our lives without question. Go to preschool! Go to elementary! Go to middle school! Go to high school! Get good grades! Go to college! Get a degree in a profession that'll make you tons of money! Save, invest! Get a stable career! Blah blah blah. If the entire planet were obliterated, none of those things would matter. It wouldn't matter how much your income was, or what degree you had, or how many people liked you. It wouldn't matter how many debates you won, or what dress you wore to prom. Eh. That's an awfully depressing thought. Just because everything could come crashing down instantly is no justification for not trying your hardest.
Unnecessarily personal detail: I have difficulty believing in the intimacy of families, as my family is completely fucked up and laughs in the face of 'closeness'. We have familial claustrophobia.
4 comments:
There's got to be more to this, I bet.
I, personally, think that you'd do great in college.
I'm going to college so I won't have to be on other people's phone lines for the rest of my life! ^_^.
Kidding, but I think it'd be a great investment for you, regardless of your fatalistic look on it. Sure, if we all died tomorrow it wouldn't mean a dog's shit, but I'd rather get that green just in case that doesn't happen, lol.
[shrug] You have your whole life to think about education. Yeen gotta go when we do.
and in the end we die.
it's crazy to think about how
hard people work for things,
and how much people think
it is important to look good,
and have lots of money.
and some die doing it.
but...there's really no other way
to live. because considering all things, you can only go against
the grain so much. and no matter
how hard you try to be yourself at
all times, you'll disappear into
the crowds of people who are pushing
you out of their way so THEY can have a "better" life.
you're cool.
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