Ignore the last blog.
I was going through some things...
I love people!
Lmao, I sound like a psycho. Whateverrrr.
You know what I realized just now?
STEN'S CLOTHES ARE REALLY COMFY.
I'm wearing his Zoo York hoodie that I was supposed to return ye olde time ago.
He doesn't need it back. NOPE.
But, this blog is about my 'love' life. And love is in quotation marks because I don't love. (dese hoes)
But, the more I think about it ... all of these people who I like, don't like me back, or they don't act like it. But, those few people who we shared a mutual bond with ... went nowhere.
So it makes me question my priorities.
I'm not looking for 'true love' (or affection), since I'm only 16.
I'm not even looking for solace in a relationship.
But, today I 'met' someone ... he's fcking cool as shit.
Whatever. I'm gonna end up fucking it up regardless.
Again with these two people;
We shall call them Perception and Indifference.
The two ruling forces in my life ; the two ruling males in my life.
Neither competes for alpha dominance.
Both exist in semi-perfect neutrality.
Perception is always there, and even though I said I didn't want to continue anything with him, I'm questioning if that was a mistake. We both sort of lost our minds recently, and it kind of helped me see him as a person better. I never stopped 'digging' him. I just didn't want to put the weight of my psychosis on him. It's not fun dealing with YOUR problems AND the problems of another. Plus, I just didn't think he was ready to handle any of them. But, he said he was willing to put up 50% if I was willing to do the same. And I apologize, but I'd like to be happy NAO. So, hm ...
Indifference. Quirky little fellow. He's cool, too, and I've liked him for a while because of his quirks/lack of assimilation. Wait, have you ever seen one of those movies where the broad says something like 'I`m in love with you, but you only love me" ? That's what I feel like it'd be. Of course it's not love now, but if it ever got to that point, I think we'd be in that sorta sitch. Plus, I don't want to be an inhibitor to what goodness he COULD have. As much as I'd like it to work, the tides seem to be working against me. I've never been one to chase for a long time (don't have the patience) and this seems like a LOOOOOOOOOOONG chase ...
RAWF!
Mall tomorrow.
Prom Thursday.
Hotel Thursday/Friday.
Party Saturday.
We should chill.
Also, I don't want to be the 'fat friend' this summer, so I started working out.
=]
My 'stats' so far are:
5'0 feet tall.
129 lbs.
No booty. =[
I was going through some things...
I love people!
Lmao, I sound like a psycho. Whateverrrr.
You know what I realized just now?
STEN'S CLOTHES ARE REALLY COMFY.
I'm wearing his Zoo York hoodie that I was supposed to return ye olde time ago.
He doesn't need it back. NOPE.
But, this blog is about my 'love' life. And love is in quotation marks because I don't love. (dese hoes)
But, the more I think about it ... all of these people who I like, don't like me back, or they don't act like it. But, those few people who we shared a mutual bond with ... went nowhere.
So it makes me question my priorities.
I'm not looking for 'true love' (or affection), since I'm only 16.
I'm not even looking for solace in a relationship.
But, today I 'met' someone ... he's fcking cool as shit.
Whatever. I'm gonna end up fucking it up regardless.
Again with these two people;
We shall call them Perception and Indifference.
The two ruling forces in my life ; the two ruling males in my life.
Neither competes for alpha dominance.
Both exist in semi-perfect neutrality.
Perception is always there, and even though I said I didn't want to continue anything with him, I'm questioning if that was a mistake. We both sort of lost our minds recently, and it kind of helped me see him as a person better. I never stopped 'digging' him. I just didn't want to put the weight of my psychosis on him. It's not fun dealing with YOUR problems AND the problems of another. Plus, I just didn't think he was ready to handle any of them. But, he said he was willing to put up 50% if I was willing to do the same. And I apologize, but I'd like to be happy NAO. So, hm ...
Indifference. Quirky little fellow. He's cool, too, and I've liked him for a while because of his quirks/lack of assimilation. Wait, have you ever seen one of those movies where the broad says something like 'I`m in love with you, but you only love me" ? That's what I feel like it'd be. Of course it's not love now, but if it ever got to that point, I think we'd be in that sorta sitch. Plus, I don't want to be an inhibitor to what goodness he COULD have. As much as I'd like it to work, the tides seem to be working against me. I've never been one to chase for a long time (don't have the patience) and this seems like a LOOOOOOOOOOONG chase ...
RAWF!
Mall tomorrow.
Prom Thursday.
Hotel Thursday/Friday.
Party Saturday.
We should chill.
Also, I don't want to be the 'fat friend' this summer, so I started working out.
=]
My 'stats' so far are:
5'0 feet tall.
129 lbs.
No booty. =[
♥
6 comments:
Who are these people ?
muahahahahaaaaa
& you`ll never have
a booty .
Unless you wanna borrow .
You aren`t even fat !
SHUT UP ! Lmao .
Why is everyone working out all of the sudden? LMAO.
Niggas tryna get fit for the summer, and shit..
Yall make me wanna get into a gym.
:(
And yes, Khloe? I'm afraid you'll never have a booty. You can always buy booty pads, they have them in the beauty supply. LOL
China, don't play with me.
I will go to the beauty supply right NAO.
& I say we all start going to the gym together. I already have a membership.
I think i kno who the ppl are, unless im a horrible guesser
PROM YAY, B fly
and u kno gud and well "fat friend" is MY title GET UP OFF, and u aint een in da runing skinny ho!
-neva gonna log in
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